How I Got Here

...... I am not sure where to begin. Up until a year ago I did not even know what a 'blog" was.  You always hear about them, but no one really ever says what one is. 
       My sister started a blog as on outlet for her struggles and triumphs with breast cancer. Or as she puts it "laughing my way through cancer". I thought it was an awesome idea.... for her. Then things in my life started to go a little ‘off the beaten path‘.  I realized that, for my poor husband and sons sake, I too needed an "outlet".  
quietly SCREAMING... I don't like getting mad, I sometimes have a very hard time getting mad and other times I get mad when there really is not a reason!  The latter one unfortunately has been accruing more often. I mean do I really have a right to be angry at the husband because he wants to go to bed really after helping someone move for 12 hours!? Weather its “right” or  not I do get mad at things like that.  I want to scream and yell, cuss and throw stuff. BUT I cant b/c I don't have a good enough reason to be mad in the first place. So I keep calm and quietly tell my husband or another innocent bystander what's bugging me. 
       I am fully aware of my irrationality. I am also aware of the stress it is putting on me and my little family. So I went to my very amazing doctor. She was helpful as always in letting me know that it is the new medicine making my anxiety go up, which in turn she said was causing my "irrational anger" Thank you Dr.G! 
       Her suggestion was to find an out let, something that I can do that will not stress me out but help me collect my thoughts. I came home and thought, a lot about what I could do.... I thought for a LONG time, and got no where. So I do what every one does when they need help. I turned to the internet. 
       I can not tell you what I planed on searching b/c I checked my e-mail and Facebook first, shame on me, I know. As suspected I got side tracked and ended up taking some kind of  “what’s your real age” test. Things are fine, and I answering the questions, and out of no where I am pissed!??! lol...... 
       Then I really knew I had to something! And there was the answer right there on my computer. A tab I had opened but had not gotten a chance to look at yet. My sisters blog. It made perfect sense. I could start my own! Then I could let all my irrational anger and frustrations out, without having to TALK to someone and risk saying the wrong thing and upsetting them in the process! 


So here I am. Not angry anymore ...for the moment .....Guess that’s how you begin :)